I loss my seven-year-old dog

This is my cousin-Marlon who helped me in burying Kane

Kane's graveyard

 It's been two weeks since my pet died. I'm having a hard time dealing with my sleeping habit because I often think of him. I really feel sorry for his loss. I felt guilt because I didn't sent him to vet earlier. I'm missing you so much Kane.. That's why I don't feel like taking care of a new dog. I just want to have work first so that I could provide everything what a dog needs. I'll cherish the memories we spent together. 

June 22,2004-February 14,2012

I remember the first day I held you in my arms. We've almost spent our time together. I taught you in your toilet training. I'm gonna miss our daily routine, we go out to walk and run together. You always bark at me and call my attention whenever you want to go outside and if you're already starving. I always want to go home early after school because I know there's someone who's waiting for me at home. You're giving me a warm welcome as I approach on the door. You always want to be hug and then you'll lick my face and that's so sweet! Dad and Mom loves you too. Everyone loves you in short. Other than Kyle, we have our one and only baby..and that's you! I won't forget those times when you're walking towards me when I'm crying.. Though you keep on messing by midnight through opening our trash bags and look for something weird and it makes us angry then I can't slap you though. You love to pee in carpets, floor rugs and even at my bed when you're young but then, I can't really hurt you. Mom's always looking for you with a broom and attempts to teach you a lesson but I always help to hide until she forgot what you did. I'm so proud of you my boy because you won in a Dog's competition--"Best Costume" though you're only two dogs at that category. haha! XD

One day isn't enough for me to reminisce it all. I love you so much Kane. 

Remembering our good memories together is the best way to keep forward.

Chasing a kid

Goodnight! ★
Chasing with a kid earlier before going to my cancelled duty.. XD
✔ Finalized the two tarpaulins for our upcoming seminar next week
✔Reviewed for quiz tom. but still need to read more. XD


♫ Goin' crazy by this time. Have to read a lot. ;)
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Smile though your heart is aching ✿

Smile though your heart is aching :)

✿ There are many reasons why my heart is aching but then those things made me stronger enough to face everyday dilemmas that comes into my life.  Living it all to Lord is one of the best way that I can do. 


NOW: I have to finish my reaction paper.
         ✔ Done in reviews.


Whew. Fighting!


Midnight Life. ✿

Great Sunday

Photo taken earlier at our bathroom when I got home- Tired yet Happy :)

Last night, I set my two phones to alarm and wake me up by 7’o clock in the morning. By 7 A.M, I snoozed it and woke up by 7:30.. hahaha! It’s not funny anymore when I discovered that there’s no breakfast served for me. :/ I forgot that mom’s out and I have no choice but to pull the pan out and fry hotdogs and eggs. Also, I have to cook rice ‘til lunch so that my siblings won’t experience hunger by lunch time. Lols.  It’s already 8 A.M., I eat as much as I can. I didn’t make my coffee because I don’t have enough time to make a sip. :/  Wearing a White complete school uniform is unusual before because hello?? It’s Sunday!!! Haha! But I and my classmates are used to it. We often have our Sunday class this sem.  Anyway, let’s fast it forward. I arrived at school by 9.15 A.M and it’s late! My examination sched is 9-11 A.M. Luckily, our proctor didn’t arrived at the exact time.  So I was able to get my examination. It’s HARD! :/ (or msybe it’s hard because I fall asleep by midnight while having a review. Hahaha!)

Moving on.. =p

My lunch. Yum! :D

After that stressful exam, I, Dhine, Sherwin and Kristel had our lunch at a Korean resto. It’s affordable yet delicious!  It’s also Kristel’s 20^th birthday and she invited us to attend at their youth service at Malabon. I really thank God for giving me friends like them.  They made me closer to God. Since I attend at Christian Ministry Youth Services & their worship nights, it really gave me a better feeling. Hmm, I’ll elaborate those stuffs on my next post. :P  

with Kristel :)

with classmates/friends during youth service. w/kuya Kenneth

I spent my time in attending at youth service earlier with friends/classmates and met another new set of friends. It’s fun!

My day didn’t just end up in it. I rushed myself to see a friend by 7.30 p.m. She have waited me for almost 1 ½ hours. Wheeww. Felt sorry for it but anyway, it’s fine according to her. Hahaha! I have to meet her to borrow her costume for my lil sister for her upcoming school play and meeting another friend to borrow a cam, haha! Borrowwwwwww… XD and also, meeting an online friend. XD We ate unlimited rice and that makes my tummy so full. Three cups of rice are enough to satisfy myself. Nyahahaha! They’re all good and fun to be with. :)

I’m tired to share more by this time.  Hahaha XD

                                   

Valentine's

I spent my Valentine ’s Day at home the whole day. Anyway, it’s not unusual. Valentine’s is just an ordinary day for me although flowers are everywhere that comes with its double price. Haha!

I spent my whole day at my dark room by lying at bed surrounded with my pillows that almost covered by face that catches my tears from falling. It was one of the saddest day of my life. My seven-year-old dog died. It was very traumatic and it was very painful.  There were times that I’m just blaming myself for what had happened to him. I know that I wasn’t able to provide what are his needs due to financial matters. Taking care of a sick dog was not easy to handle. It requires patience and expenses just like taking care of a human. He had a skin disease four months ago and I got him to vet for his check-ups. His vet gave him prescriptions to cure his disease. His manges was even got cured but then 2 weeks ago, it re-occurs. By this time, he doesn’t have an appetite and he just kept on drinking lots of water. He’s not been eating for almost 1 week. I saw how he loses his weight. I thought he’s still fine because he’s walking somehow and I even gave him medicated baths. 3 days ago before he died, I noticed that he’s getting weak. But then, I decided to bring him to vet after I’ll go to my friend’s home for a sleepover because we’ll be having our final thesis defense for the following day. A night before, as I called my sister, she told me that my pet is vomiting blood and it seems that he’s dying. I really want to go when I heard it but after 20 mins she told me that she already took care of Kane and it’s such a relief because he’s sleeping by that time.

I went home by morning. As I approach our house, I saw Kane outside, he’s lying on the ground then I hugged him tight. I talked to him and said sorry. I put him at my lap and caress his head and body and telling him that no matter what happens, I’ll bring him to vet.

I put him in a bag where he can breathe though and I rushed to a nearby vet hospital.  The vet told me that he’s in pain and he’s dying. He has a poor prognosis to my dog at 70:30. I wasn’t able to admit him because my money isn’t enough to confine him but his vet also told me not to admit him because even him, he’s not sure if my dog could still survive. He just advised me to give Kane Blue Gatorade and chicken liver at home. Kane is having chills and dehydrated. I also saw ulceration at his leg. His vet administered pain reliever and steroid and advised me to take care of my pet. I rushed him to our home after. As we approach the gate, I felt his throat. It’s like he’s swallowing. I though he’s going to vomit but.. It’s not.. I ran to our home as fast as I could..I lay him at the ground and that’s the time I saw how he died in pain until his last breath. I cried out loud and my mom tried to comfort me by asking me to get inside our house.

It’s really hard to accept the fact that the thing you were taking care for a long period of time will be loss someday..

Keep on moving forward. It's difficult but that's how Life is.

I took this photo when I was at Krisia's apartment in Valenzuela five days ago. She's a good friend of mine. :)

I woke up early in the morning, I took my camera and went outside to see the sun and take a deep breath at the rooftop. I wore my grey flat shoes and walk for awhile to see something outside. Then I saw a good subject, it was my legs! Oh, not exactly! It's my checkered dress and my shoes! :P

"Keep on moving forward. It's difficult but that's how Life is." -- I formulated this thought. XD 

I'm having a hard time dealing with life this past few weeks and even last few months. It's kinda hard! :/

-Why? I'll share it after this post. 

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